Lady Gaga Admits She Thought About "Dark S--T" Every Day When Dealing With Depression

Lady Gaga Admits She Thought About "Dark S--T" Every Day When Dealing With Depression
September 17, 2020 - 23:13 / Amanda Stanford

Lady Gaga is getting real about her battle with depression and is honest in revealing how dark her mind wandered during that difficult time. The award-winning singer is hoping her story can help others dealing with mental illness.

Lady Gaga isn't holding anything back when it comes to her latest interview with Billboard magazine and is opening up about her battle with depression. 

The Grammy-winning star gets candid amid other hot topics, and discusses Black Lives Matter, her perspective on art, and so much more!

Lady Gaga is bearing it all in candid interview

Lady Gaga isn't holding anything back in regards to the truth about her mental health. In her latest interview with Billboard magazine, Gaga reveals her dark moments. 

Lady Gaga poses for photographers outside the Princess of Wales Theatre as she arrives for the premiere of her movie "Gaga: Five Foot Two" at the Toronto International Film Festival.

Gaga, who scored her first #1 on the Billboard Hot 100 over 11 years ago with "Just Dance," has since recorded a bevy of albums, always hitting the top of the charts. Her latest single with Ariana Grande, "Rain On Me," again made it to no. 1.

But after her Joanne tour, Gaga says she entered a deep depression and felt overwhelmed with her adopted persona.

"I used to wake up every day and remember I was Lady Gaga and then I would get depressed," she said to the publication. "I was peeling all the layers of the onion in therapy, so as you dig deeper, you get closer to the core, and the core of the onion stinks."

The pop star then revealed she would sit outside smoking cigarettes and crying, wondering to herself why she couldn't "flip a switch" and be happier.

Gaga also goes on to admit that she was drinking a lot too, which inspired the lyrics "I'd rather be dry/ but at least I'm alive" in "Rain On Me."

"My existence in and of itself was a threat to me," she admitted.  "I thought about really dark s--t every single day."

Gaga then goes on to share her opinion toward the ever-shifting society that's focused a lot of attention on racial justice.

"When you’re born in this country," she started, "We all drink the poison that is white supremacy. I am in the process of learning and unlearning things I’ve been taught my whole life… Social justice is not just literacy, it’s a lifestyle."

She added of Black Lives Matter, "What do I think about [posting] a black square? I think everybody has a different feeling about a black square."

"Do I think there’s such a thing as performative activism? Yes. Do I think there’s been true activism that’s been very important and needed? Yes. Do I believe Black lives matter? Yes. Do I believe this is going to get louder? Yes. Do I believe it should? Yes," she said.

Gaga then adds that during this global pandemic, making art and protecting those around her is most important, and urges people to wear a mask.

"When I see people struggling like they are right now, my brain goes, 'Put on your superhero suit. Let’s go.'"